love you ayah! mmmwaaahhxx!

i was born in a non-ordinary family....hugs and kisses, its just not us...maybe we dont know how to express our feelings but we do love each other...once again, i wanna stress here, WE DO LOVE EACH OTHER...i love my ayah,emak and all 3 sisters with their husband and kids...n i strongly believe that they love me so much too...hurmmm...but believe it or not,i never hug my dad or kiss him....maybe i did when i was a kid...but as far as i remember,i never do that....its not like i dont love him..but maybe dats my family...we dont know how to show our love to each other...EGO...maybe dats the word...and it's agreed but my kak long too...and plus, we were not tought by our parents to do so...to show our love thru hugs and kisses...we didn't practice that since we were kids...

but sumtimes kan, its not like i dont want to hug and kiss them...sumtimes, when i saw my frens hug their mom and dad everytime they visit their respective child during my days at kmb and mrsm jasin,i become so envious...siyes jeles gle ble tgk my fren dpt bnde2 cmtu but i never get such thing in my life...i wish my mom and dad are like dat...but even if let say, soon they are behaving like dat, no doubt its awkward! coz we are not used to do all the hugging and kissing thingy...sure plek la kalau ttbe my dad hug me....hurmmmm?????

and MAYBE...maybe la,because of they dont teach us to show our love directly, dats y the bond between me n my parents is not that strong....yea..we did laugh sumtimes but..it only happens especially when all of the family members are together...especially during hari raya...i love aidilfitri coz at that tyme,all my 3 sisters,bros in law,niece,me and my parents are together....:)....we would laugh,eat together and stuffs....i miss those moments so much...;(...

certainly, when i have a child, i will ensure that love is in the air of my family...i wanna be a good father and a best friend of all my children....i wish one day, i could HEAR my child says,"love u ayah! mmmwaaahhxx!"...:)...which i cannot afford to say today, but only to WRITE...but at least it's successfully delivered...eventhough the medium is different..:)




to ayah,
thx for everything...:)...love you ayah! mmmwaaahhxx!....:) i can never repay all your sacrifaction..you did a lot for me...seriously...but insyaAllah, i will try my best to make you proud of your only son..happy father's day!

a story to be ponder upon.....

hurmmm....last week i started my work at usual place...it began with a task which is quite challenging yet sumtimes could be a bit boring...controlling a helicopter....it started very well...people came in and out....after few rides, there was sumthing happen....which enlighten my eyes and thoughts....

abg ET a.k.a one : ok ladies and gentlemen, please fasten your seat belt...sila pasangkan tali pinggang keselamatan anda ye.

adik comel : abg2....ni ade brg kat seat saye ni...

*adik comel pun memberikan saye barang itu....

abg ET a.k.a one : owh...ok...thanks adik...

* abg ET a.k.a one a.k.a me then quickly go to the control board and launch the helicopter ride...after that, i quickly examine the "brg" and found that it was an PSP....ermmm...its not pusat sumber pelajaran ye adik2, its portable playstation....looked like a new one coz it shines so well in black...then, i figured out that it must be the previous rider of the helicopter who left it accidentally in the heli....i ran to the next station, to ask the visitors bout the lost of belongings....

abg ET a.k.a one : emm...puan...puan ade tertinggal brg x kat heli td...?

*aunty tu dgn glabahnye check2 la brg die...then she shouted,

aunty : adik where did u put ur PSP?

*ank die ngn tersenyum2 straight away go to me to claim his PSP...

abg ET a.k.a one : r u sure this is yours?

boy : yup2....

abg ET a.k.a one : alrite...next tyme carefull k...

after i passed the PSP back to its owner, i ran back to my control board....n told my partner bout it...

abg ET a.k.a one : wei...td aku jmpe PSP kat dlm heli...br je pulangkan kat tuan die td...

partner : fuyooo...baik gle ko...kalau aku, aku dah rembat dah...

abg ET a.k.a one : ko penah amik brg yg visitor tgl ke?

partner : hurmmmm....slalu gak la....

abg ET a.k.a one : ape yg ko dah penah amik so far...?

partner : so far aku dah penah amik 5 biji handphone...kalau wallet aku x amik la..aku pulangkan...tp ade one time tu...time tu bulan pose...aku jumpe PDA...igt nk amik...tp cm bulan pose kan...cm xbes lak amik...

abg ET a.k.a one : x penah kantoi ke ngn sape?

partner : so far x lagi....aku br brangan2 nk pakai PSP....kalau aku jumpe td, for sure aku amik...agk2 sesak, aku jual la....tp besenye kalau aku jual, duit tu aku x wat bli mknn ar...aku bli bnde lain cam komik....etc...

*hurmmm.....i just pray the best for him, myself, my family, my future family and all my inheritance...hope dijauhkan from all the wrongdoings....amin~

p/s : my company strictly upholding the good ethics of its workers...any wrongdoings of anyone of us will be taken a firm action....

taggo tagged!

hurmm.....i've been tagged! ahaha...slalunye malas nk layan tag2 ni...tp diz tyme since dah xde keje,just answer those easy pizy questions...hope u enjoy it...;)

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1. How old are you and are you single?

hurmmm...people say that i am much more matured than my age...is dat so?? hurmmm...wtv it is, im just 20...haha...

2. At what age do you think you'll get married?

InsyaAllah,several years from now...we plan, HE decides...lagi cepat, lagi bagus..:P

3. Do you think you'll be marrying

the person you're with now?

hurmmm...i am just trying my super duper very best to preserve what i have today...

4. If not, who do you want to marry with?

Her..the name which has been written before i was born...

5. Who would be your bridesmaid and best man?

actually,bridesmaid dah ade yg nk chup...tp kene tny my bride dulu la...hehe...my best man? hurmmm....sape2 pn xksah...:D

6. Do you want a garden / beach or traditional wedding?

garden would be great....but traditional sounds appreciating...hehe...mane2 pn bole....jnji sume lancar and selamat...:)

7. Where do you plan to go on honeymoon?

absolutely venice...for gondola riding...if not, any island in the world...

8. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
depends on my current profession dat tyme la...if i have a good profession, maybe leh je jemput ramai2....tp if cm baru2 je nak hidup ngn duit sendri, closest relatives and frens sudeyh...haha...

9. Will that include your ex-es?

depends

10. How many layers of cake do you want?
hurmmm...to be symbolic, maybe the layers of the cake is according to how many years we build oour relationship before we get married..

11. The time of day you wanna get married?

As earliest as dawn..so that we can fill every moment of the day with lots & lots of love & happiness..:D

12. Name the tune you'd like to play during the wedding.
~Thank God I Found You by Mariah Carey ft Boyz 2 Men~
~I do by 98dgrees~
~endless love by diana ross and lionel richie~

13. Fine dining or just normal fork and spoon dining?
I'll prepare everything..it's up to the guests to dine with their own comfortable ways..the choice is yours..! ;) air basuh tangan for sure ade!

14. Champagne or red wine?
uishhhh...gile ke....? mau kene perambat ngn mak, ayah, atok, nenek...hurmmm...i would ask my Uncle Rahim to teach me how to make a perfect BANDUNG SODA!

15. Honeymoon right after the wedding or

days after the wedding?
hurmmm....as soon as all the guests leave the hall, that's the beginning of our honeymoon till our last breath...

16. How many kids you'd like to have.
any number would do...as long as all of 'em are safely born and will grow up as soleh khalifah....

17. Would you record your honeymoon?

of course...but even if i wouldn't,it is still will be recorded...in my heart and my mind..;)

18. I wanna tag;
anyone who wants to do this...haha

recap of VADs...!

hurmmm....normally, the boy name nur muhammad safwan will come here with overflowing ideas on what to write....but....not this time....i just feel like to write an entry but im totally have nothing in my mind....i just wanna write sumthing.....hurmmmm...meby the all-time favourite phrase "go with the flow" may be my best fren at least until the last sentence of this entry.... :)

hurmmm...supposedly, now im at sumwhere, hanging around with dina....but it was cancelled yesterday due to unavoidable thing....hurmmm.....i just cant understand myself la...why at the very first moment when i got a sudden bad news, i tend to be emotionally disturbed but actually, the so-called "bad news" was reasonable...i should understand the overall situation and should not think only about myself...it is not like She cancel the date because she loves to do so...there's a reason beneath it and it is REASONABLE! why cant i understand? but that's at the very first moment la...after a while,when the wave become calmer,when the congestion of neurons in my head has eased, everything become rational....i begin to see the problems clearly and accept it as the way it is...hurmmm...but meby that's the nature of human.....plus all the silent whispers from all the laknatullah, it just add more hatred in my heart....hurmmmm..to all people out there yg pernah terkena with my sudden emotionally disturbed, im truly deeply sorry of my wrongdoings...:(



our latest picture....after 4 months x jumpe...:)
LnMysMs....always have,always will :-*

okay! stop all the crappy jiwang thingy.....let's talk bout my new "home", petrosains...haha...supposedly, last saturday, my batch has efficiently planned to do our 2nd batch gathering at pengkalan balak, melaka....it has been planned for months but till the very last day, only 9 people has confirmed to join....out of 41 people in my batch...hurmmm....the plan was about to go on as usual but it was cancelled 2 days before the trip coz from the 9 people, 3 of them cancelled it....az has to put the priority to her family coz she has just become a MAK LANG! congratz az! hehe...while fathi and shuk has some family matters...eventhough at first tu i was like sedey jgk la coz im sooo looking forward for this trip but meby it is not our rezeki just yet to meet up and update all the stories....there's a blessing in disguise im sure..:)....
next monday, on 15 june 09, most probably, i'll join the most awaited event of the year, Volunteer Appreciation Day (VAD)....! ooooppsss....dat's maybe few years back...but not this year....the excitement to attend VAD was not as sparkling as previous year....this year, the budget has been cut....previous VAD was a great event! in 2007, we had it at the zone hotel....in the morning, there was a tresure hunt held at KLCC park and in the afternoon, all of us would boasting ourself with our own costume, according to the theme on that year, 50 years of Malaysia independence....it was such a happening,superb event....! still igt lg time tu, me n my batch has to present a sketch regarding kemerdekaan...i become a "bapak",hubby of elly who is the "emak"...we are the parents of KARIM, si sutun from UPNM...hehe...it was actually a "reverse" version of kasim selamat, a classic movie from P. Ramlee era...don't have to story more, let the pictures below do the talk...;)

my group tyme treasure hunt! kene blindfold...huhu

treasure hunt at KLCC park!


this is the scene where fatin (the who is kneeling) dah kene cucuk with her forks...hehe...from left is raja 'the karim', elly 'the emak' and me 'the bapak'...


time pengisytiharan kemerdekaan by "Tunku Abdul Rahman" a.k.a aiman...hahaha...

all the samseng kampung dusun!



in 2008, the theme was cartoon maniA! haha....we were 'forced' to wear any cartoon character costume and due to the blunderness of idea, i just wear the simplest MIB costume...haha...just put on my dad's suit and a sunglass...tadaaa! done...hehe..n my partner of the day is my cutey KIM POSSIBLE...! hehe...;)...as usual, there is a treasure hunt in the petrosains itself....it was still fun eventhough it is not held at the KLCC park as the previous year..


with my kim possible!


there were flinstone, spiderman and frens....haha...jabbawockeez pn ade??

the witches,darthvader,MIB and wolverine....where's kayla mr. logan?


hurmmm....2009? the theme is "that's 80's show"....hurmmm...but...since the company has reduced the budget for volunteers, including our working hours and events, this year's VAD won't promise any excitement i bet....the event is scheduled to start only at 3pm...there will be no running for treasure hunt whether inside or outside KLCC....no breakfast...just maybe HI-TEA and performances and awards giving ceremony....and it is scheduled to end at 6pm....wut do you expect? people,just dont expect much....and first thing first,i wont waste my money to prepare my costume....

ok then....it seems like the flow starts to overflowing....hehe...see?? sumtimes, ad-hoc work works!...we just don't need to plan....hurmmm...maybe we shud plan and it's good to plan our work...but eventually, HE will decide everything for us...just hoping the best for everyone...till then....have a good day everybody...take care...~

R.e.L.i.E.F is the word of the day...and at least for the next 1 month...:)

Fuhh...!

what a relieve.... :) ...
first of all...i have done my fearest thing of the year...IB Exam of 2009...
it was fine alhamdulillah...eventhough some had caused my head to explode, but not to forget, some had made my day...:)....for now, not much dat i can do other than endless of prayers...

next relieving thing, i am proud to say that i am Malaysian....:)haha....i had finished my 5 days BTN camp at meru, klang....it was the most informative yet fun and vital course i have ever participate...

here are some interesting situation to be shared :

thursday, 28/5/09, 11.05 p.m

taf : wan, camne ek kiter nak pastikan ape yg kiter dpt kat btn ni, kite dapat sampaikan kat sume org kat luar tu?

safwan : uishh...susah tu taf....benda ni yg penting is delivery system...care kite smpaikan bnde ni...kalau salah care, x berkesan gak..

taf : betul...tp siyes bnde ni sgt pnting...

safwan : yup...especially utk org melayu....bape ramai sgt yg tau pasal betape pentingnye social contract tu kat org melayu? bile diorg xtau sejarah, mulelah pihak2 yg x bertanggungjawab tu wat tuntutan yg bukan2...pastu yg melayu yang x brape tau sejarah ni, gi sokong skali tuntutan diorg tu...padahal secara tak langsung, dia dah bunuh bangsa sendiri...aku pelik la...org melayu yang sokong tu bukan xde pendidikan...blajar tggi kot...tp nape la diorg wat cmtu kat bangse sendiri ek..?

taf : meby aku rase nih sebab ****** la...second thing sebab terlalu sgt nk *****...

~end~perbualan diakhiri kat depan surau...

seriously, that was the most crucial and serious conversation i have ever had through out my 20 years of life...i have never talked that kind of serious about my own race...my own country....but BTN had opened my eyes how important it is to preserve what we already have... it is our own rights....nobody should take it away from us!
people out there, do learn from history..before you support sumthing k...preserve what we already have today before it is taken away and you will never get it back...
insyaAllah, i will talk bout the content of BTN in my next next entry...:)

the last relieving thing...my sister's wedding was a success! alhamdulillah, at 853 a.m sharp, faridul atras is a official hubby of my dear sister, norsyafinaz azman....with sekali lafaz, their dream has come true....hope they will be together till the end of the day with beautiful n soleh kids...amin...~

so, what's next?
i just can't wait for my petrosains reunion trip diz saturday...cant wait to meet you guys....dah lame x gi holiday...huhu....wait for US k...hehe..=P...