i was born in a non-ordinary family....hugs and kisses, its just not us...maybe we dont know how to express our feelings but we do love each other...once again, i wanna stress here, WE DO LOVE EACH OTHER...i love my ayah,emak and all 3 sisters with their husband and kids...n i strongly believe that they love me so much too...hurmmm...but believe it or not,i never hug my dad or kiss him....maybe i did when i was a kid...but as far as i remember,i never do that....its not like i dont love him..but maybe dats my family...we dont know how to show our love to each other...EGO...maybe dats the word...and it's agreed but my kak long too...and plus, we were not tought by our parents to do so...to show our love thru hugs and kisses...we didn't practice that since we were kids...
but sumtimes kan, its not like i dont want to hug and kiss them...sumtimes, when i saw my frens hug their mom and dad everytime they visit their respective child during my days at kmb and mrsm jasin,i become so envious...siyes jeles gle ble tgk my fren dpt bnde2 cmtu but i never get such thing in my life...i wish my mom and dad are like dat...but even if let say, soon they are behaving like dat, no doubt its awkward! coz we are not used to do all the hugging and kissing thingy...sure plek la kalau ttbe my dad hug me....hurmmmm?????
and MAYBE...maybe la,because of they dont teach us to show our love directly, dats y the bond between me n my parents is not that strong....yea..we did laugh sumtimes but..it only happens especially when all of the family members are together...especially during hari raya...i love aidilfitri coz at that tyme,all my 3 sisters,bros in law,niece,me and my parents are together....:)....we would laugh,eat together and stuffs....i miss those moments so much...;(...
certainly, when i have a child, i will ensure that love is in the air of my family...i wanna be a good father and a best friend of all my children....i wish one day, i could HEAR my child says,"love u ayah! mmmwaaahhxx!"...:)...which i cannot afford to say today, but only to WRITE...but at least it's successfully delivered...eventhough the medium is different..:)
thx for everything...:)...love you ayah! mmmwaaahhxx!....:) i can never repay all your sacrifaction..you did a lot for me...seriously...but insyaAllah, i will try my best to make you proud of your only son..happy father's day!
My Journey As BCS - Part 6
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